In 2020 before the Covid became a global pandemic , my partner and I decided to move in together. I have never left my parents house before but I was ready for a change.
i knew it would be a challenge but never imagined how much struggling and character building it would be , in the real adult life no one prepares us for the difficulties in making our own decisions , about the balance we must make in order to manifest all that we want to accomplish , and then Covid hits the whole world , great! just what we needed.
All of my savings were gone in about 2 months , since I couldn't work (at 1st ) from home , and I needed to ask my landlord to wait with the rent.
When you get to know me a little , you will see that I am a bit of a control freak , and I don't like when things go the wrong way , so that hit me hard.
From a strong , independent woman that earns pretty well , with a nice job that I love , my own apartment with the man I love and my freedom , I became so weak , helpless , needy , that it took some growing pains to overcome.
One moment I was back from Romania after a nice , winter weekend getaway ,back to a lockdown of almost 2 months , it completely shut me off.
So what now? a lot of tears , but then i understood that something need to change , i dont have the stability anymore , NOTHING is the same , i can see my family , i dont have anyone to help me make a the right choices , and i need to move out from my apartment with no savings , since i don't have a room in my parents house anymore , neither that i wish to go back and sacrifice my own space.
So whoever heard about “burning the bridges” , let me tell you , it is not getting easier , there is nowhere to go back , you can only move forward from this point , so I did.
After a month of hell , anxiety and again a lot of tears , the country was partly open to essentials workers , so i got a pass from my job and at least i could go back and earn some money , but it didn't solve anything , i had a debt to pay , and a new apartment to find in 2 weeks, so there is no time to rush my mind into thoughts , i need a plan!
We got a new apartment by the last minute , and now we need to move all of our stuff , with the quarantine and the stress , my partner is self employed so he is meetings , i felt like i need to turn on my wonder woman switch and make it all happen , i don't know how but i must. Few months past , we got a loan from the bank , and thing seems to get back into place , but wait , the moment i was least expecting , and i was very careful i will tell you that , me and my whole family of 8 got tested POSITIVE for Covid , wow that's fun!
Not be able to work normally , feeling like Sh*t , but again hoping for the best to come , i've lost my job , since i got health issues due the side effects , starting from 0 again.
I didn't want to disappoint anyone , mostly myself .
Life is a b*tch ! At this moment I wanted to give up on everything we have built and just press pause until Covid is gone , but that's not gonna happen ah? So I was unemployed for 3 months again , getting bills and debts piled up, feeling hopeless.
I have understood that I don't want my life to keep going in this path , so I have made up my mind to go and explore my desires , develop my skills , and focus on growing as an individual .
After a few months of searching , I've made up my mind to start this blog.
I want to make my hobby into my main occupation , so if you like this and want to help your business grow with sales copy , to write ads or articles for you , go to the contact tab and I will get back to you.